Playing Like Shit         

Okay so now I’m totally FOCUSED on MY problems*. Sorry if this is a little gross, or cringe but I’m missing the tip of my index finger. Childhood injury – they stitched me up on the spot while my dad held me. The kind of deformity that really wouldn’t hold you back in life. Unless of course you wanted to be a hand model or guitar player. Basically, my ‘Trigger Finger’ is straight bone and it hurts me to play ‘classically’. Pain isn’t really the problem though.

Why do I feel like I’m always setting expectations lately?

So no, I’m not being weird. I don’t have Authority Defiance Disorder**. I can be slightly self-aware. My problem is that tonally lately, I sound pretty ‘hero-y’ and I know that’s not who I am. So “Wow! That guy can play!” is what I want you to believe. Because in reality, if I really could, I’d probably be two states away tonight – playing some joint, just for the gas money and pussy.

“Being cool kills” – ‘H’

* Everything $ is going through the roof – it’s probably not just MY problem?

** Trapping somebody with it takes years